Translator/Editor : Léabyss
[SEPTEMBER, 10TH]
My mother gave me a birthday present. He says it is the same as the notebook he is using … “You are very smart. You surely have a lot to say. Don’t you? … I feel the same.”
I wasn’t really sure about using it, but I was really happy that my mother and I had so much in common! I will do my best and try to make him proud of me!
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[THURSDAY]
My brother Hikaru is almost the same as me, but Richt … I don’t think we’re the same in anything. Everyone says Richt is a lion, he’s bigger and heavier, so I have to be careful and they forbid me to ride on him because they think I might fall … But Richt Onii-chan is wonderful! I love him so much! Even if he’s not very soft on me, it makes me feel pretty happy.
I love his fluffy and comfortable body and I love spending time with him. He is my best friend!
[MONDAY]
I always go to bath with Mom … But today I had to go into Grandpa’s bathroom with Dad Douglas because Dad Gale and Mom didn’t come out.
I guess the bathrooms at home are so spacious that they like to play together there, with the water dolls that I left the other time. I would like to play with them next time!
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[FRIDAY]
Mom’s cooked rice is always delicious! Finally, I was able to eat rice by myself … But my mom always sits on my parents’ legs and waits for them to feed him.
Why is mom still not eating alone? Do I need to teach him to eat?
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[SATURDAY]
Today, we all stay at Grandpa Hector’s house. I’m a little lonely because Daddy Gale, Daddy Douglas, and Mommy aren’t here … But Alex and Theo are playing with us! Even our uncle Johann and our uncle Gallis were there. It was fun eating together and bathing together! Hikaru is with Theo, Richt is with Johann and I am with Uncle Gallis. Can we have another sleepover like this in the future?
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[TUESDAY]
Mom told me that I was going to go to Catalton today, because I needed to go heal some people who were hurt … We are alone. Richt, Hikaru and me.
I’m scared, because there are a lot of bad people in Catalton and I don’t want my mom to be hurt. Dad Douglas and Dad Gale told me everything would be fine. They said I didn’t have to be afraid and they also explained to me that soon we would all be together again … I don’t remember a time when they were wrong.
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[FRIDAY]
I wasn’t quite sure how bad people found me, but at the time, I was very scared … They had kidnapped me.
It was a damp and cold place and I couldn’t hear anyone. Neither my mother nor my parents … I cried a lot, really a lot. My eyes ached and my stomach ached as well … But shortly after, a great noise was heard and the place where I was trapped disappeared, turned into many pieces of stone.
Uncle Gallis came to help me.
It was the first time I had seen the Gallis dragon, but I knew it immediately. I knew it was him and that he had come for me … For the first time, in the midst of so much fear, I had a moment of infinite calm.
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[MONDAY]
This is the first time I’ve taken this book in … quite a few years. Well, I had thought doing this was kind of stupid, but you see! I have many things to say again!
Thank you, damn unhappy adolescence!
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[WEDNESDAY]
I don’t hate eating with my family, but my parents give me a kind of severe stomach indigestion combined with a stroke.
When I was a child it seemed very normal … But now I think it is a bit annoying. If my parents whisper a sweet word to my mother, Chika’s face will turn red, no matter where he is. Regardless of whether I’m right there! Eating!
Mom, I think you should avoid having sexual desires when we eat breakfast .
Papa Gale always looks at him with a rather loving expression and Papa Douglas always places him on his lap … And they kiss. Oh my God! Really? All the time? And when they go to bathe it takes like three hours. Three hours in the bathroom! I was late to the guild because my things were there and I couldn’t go through them.
At the moment, it just occurred to me to swap out all the rice balls in my parents’ lunch box and replace them with plums and onions.
Have a good meal, beloved parents.
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[SATURDAY]
Today’s patient is a bear adventurer who has been diagnosed with a minor wrist injury. He seemed to be honest and strong, but in bed he was quite a gentleman. He cared about my body, which is much smaller than his, he caressed me carefully and was very comfortable when he hugged me against his large chest. However, since there was a moment when I remembered that he was very similar to my dad … Well, my libido disappeared completely and I had no choice but to pretend that I liked him.
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[MONDAY]
I’m worried about Hikaru …
I don’t want to compare him to Richt, but it is inevitable. Hikaru is small, shaky, insecure … Dad Gale and my mother Chika are more of the type who thinks we should learn and grow from mistakes. Little by little, but firmly. They have given me a lot of freedom because they trust me, because I have handled everything perfectly and I have shown them that I can get out of my own bumps … But Hikaru, who is Hikaru, grew up under the overprotection of Douglas. It really is strange, but it seems that to my father he is still his little boy. He miraculously accepted Theo … More than anything, because he’s a gossip of the worst and found out they hadn’t had any sexual encounters. Not even once! Not today! What’s more, Theo promised that he would wait for Hikaru to turn 25. What crap is that?
Dad knows I have sex, but he fervently believes that I have it all under control. Because I’m already big! My brother is older! But sadly Hikaru has grown up without confidence in himself.
Even though he likes Theo and he’s his partner … I feel like he’s wasting it. I feel like I should have a partner and not him.
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[FRIDAY]
I spent the night with a lion.
Papa Gale, who wasn’t stupid either, locked me up for an afternoon and gave me a very strange talk. “I trust you, but I love you and I care a lot. Lions are dangerous predators who view their mates as prey during sex. You are smart and you are growing … But you are still our son.”
However, I trusted my experience. In the slave collar, in which I was very, very good at controlling beasts … And yes, it is true that I felt a sense of impressive pleasure and an immense experience of being dominated. But if you ask me, that wasn’t bad at all.
Mom, how could you have so many children with my father? You don’t have these tools so I’m really surprised … No, I don’t want to delve too deeply into his sex life right now.
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[WEDNESDAY]
I spent my free time drinking tea with my parents … And then Gallis got there and sat down to start sharing sake and cupcakes.
The left arm that should have been there is missing … And the sleeve of his shirt hangs freely from one side to the other. God … it’s perfect , absolutely sexy …
Not knowing this, Gallis is laughing at my father Douglas’s usual comments, jokes about cats that don’t need a lot of brain muscle.
But Gallis, silly and all … I still like him very much.
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[JANUARY]
Richt eventually formalized a relationship with Johann.
The loving appearance of the two of them is deeply disgusting to me because … Hello! The man I love is not my partner! But, I guess I’m still happy for him. I mean, Richt is still my best friend.
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[FRIDAY]
Gallis remains in my head as I tend to an animal of a race I have never seen in Leonidas. An anima, whose skin is scaly … It is a reptilian beast , but I don’t know what race it is because it does not appear to be completely snake.
I generally select my partner more carefully. I analyze them, I see that they are not so intelligent, not so strong and that their medical results are normal … But at that moment I did not think about it much.
He was very similar to Gallis.
When I take it to the usual inn, I take several tools out of my backpack. You know, I need several things. Shackles, more shackles, whips and my necklace. Contraceptives, lubricants, many other things that are like my daily makeup for parties … I am not to blame for being happy with that, but I certainly felt somewhat ill . Perhaps it was punishment for the grim idea of trying to have Gallis, even with a replacement.
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[TUESDAY]
Gallis
Gallis
Gallis
Gallis
Gallis
Really I love you.
I really love you so much.
How can I resolve this feeling? How do I make you love me too …?
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“So why are you in my room and why do you have my notebook?”
Gallis, sitting on the bed in my room, is reading my personal diary without my permission … The feeling of anger does not come immediately. Rather, I am trying to stop feeling immensely ashamed.
“Hmm? I told Chikayuki that I was coming to see his beloved son Sui and he asked me to wait inside.”
“Did you tell Mom …? Wait … why do you have the diary?”
“There is no reason. Hey Sui, when you were little you were obedient and quite cute. What happened?”
“What does that mean? You think I’m not cute now”
“You are something terrifying. Did you really use chains?” Gallis smiles … why does he seem to be enjoying it? “Why did you never use it on me? Now that I think about it, I’ve never actually seen them around …”
“Wait. Did you read it all? Everything to the end?”
“Well, it’s a small book.”
Dammit!
It’s a diary from before he was in couple with Gallis, and I was honestly scared by what he might find inside. I was with many Anima, in many ways … It’s like the black story of my life. Something I want to remove.
“I’m so sorry, it’s there because I was going to throw it away in the morning … But I had to go to work and I completely forgot about it. It’s not something recent … Please forget that.”
I run to Gallis and snatch my journal from his hand.
“Why do you apologize? It is already done the same.”
“You didn’t even have to take my things in the first place! Waiting inside does not mean that you are free to inquire into people’s lives.”
“I thought I could read it before I went to bed to dream of my cute Sui sodomizing people.”
“… I think I’m going to spend the night at my grandfather’s house. Nice talking to you today.”
Gallis started laughing again. He took me by the hand and pulled me just a little closer to him.
“Ok, I’m sorry. It was a very bad joke. I don’t want to make fun of you, I … I’m here because you told me you wanted to see me, didn’t you? Is there something you want to say?”
I return to the present with the words of Gallis. Right, it’s completely as he says. I called him.
“I wish … we hadn’t had to go through the subject of the diary in the first place.”
“Sorry.”
“Whatever … I wanted to tell you that I’m going to go Fishred for a research project and, I was thinking that since we’re dating now … Do you want to come with me?”
“Fishred?” Sounds good, but … I must ask permission first.”
“I already told Sebastian. You can fly and explore while I do my homework and my research and at night … We could be alone the two of us.”
Finally, Gallis smiles in a rather tender way.
“I love the idea.”
“Really?”
“What’s better than being with you?” Then he just hugs me to say, “I’ve been training a lot … I guess my reward finally came.”
“Well … So you want to leave at dawn so you can enjoy your reward for a whole week?”
“Sure, my love … Then just let me go home quickly. I’ll be back in a few hours to get everything ready and plan well. Agree?”
“Well … But wait.”
That said, I approach Gallis and wait for my ideas to be properly clarified before I open my mouth.
“What?”
“No … That … I guess I wrote a lot about other Anima in my journal … But, I’m not like that anymore. I swear, now I only have Gallis … Sorry, I didn’t want to bother you with that any more than I have in the past.”
Gallis sighs at that last sentence. He seems quite angry, but he just settled for stroking my cheeks over and over again.
“It’s okay. I’m not going to judge you for that, or what you did or the people you slept with. That doesn’t define who you are … And that is, a wonderful man that I can’t help but love with every part of who I am now.”
“I swear I’m sorry.”
“I get it. I know, it’s okay … You don’t have to worry about that the whole time we’re together, okay?”
Gallis says that before he begins to kiss me hard … so intensely that I have no choice but to gasp to draw some air into my body.
If this always happens, I will fall even more in love with him.
“Yes…”
“Wait for me, you won’t even realize that I left.”
“I always notice when you’re not … So hurry up.”
Gallis, who broke his grip, came back to my side one last time to give me a fleeting little kiss on the head … God. Can you be more perfect ?!
I open the drawer, pull out a new notebook, and follow up on what happened today. The only thing that worried me and finally got, was my dear companion … He will accompany me on the trip, and possibly for many more years. This is the beginning of a new diary for us.
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