Translator/Editor : Léabyss
All those who are powerful beasts will undoubtedly be admired and loved by everyone around them … However, the story is a bit different for the “Animus”.
First of all, the chance of meeting a destined person is terribly low. An animus can have multiple “companions”, but for the anima there is only one. Most people in my condition never meet their ” partner “, and end their lives with someone else … Although I’ve heard it doesn’t feel the same. That “It is not something so deep.”
However, how could you believe these figures? There are so many “partners” around me that I begin to suspect my source of information.
I mean, my parents are “partners” to begin with . The sight of my two parents, loving and holding my mother in their arms is so tender and sweet that it honestly causes me heartburn … not to say they make me have tremendous envy. Even my relatives have ” partners “, the parents of my best friend Grants are ” partners “. He has a ” partner “, my brother Hikaru is my cousin Theo’s ” partner ” and I could go on and on and on for hours …
But what about me?
“Hi, Richt. You have received a new gift. It’s a letter from your fan club.”
“Captain, I already told you I don’t need any of that … Can you secretly dispose of it?”
“Son, the gentlemen’s fan club just wants to convey their honest feelings towards you. You are the most popular. And it’s not just because of the color of your fur! Leonidas loves you! Why not enjoy a little of all this unexpected fame?”
“…I get it. I am grateful for your gifts, but I don’t feel good accepting so many things. I was not raised that way.”
When I sighed, the captain looked at me with an absolutely mocking grin.
As I had thought, this person somehow has the same expressions as my dad Doug.
“Richt, the promising gentleman who has a beautiful appearance and is very popular in the village … Regardless of whether he is anima or animus, the fans only increase every week in front of the door. Gifts pile up. The blood of the royal family and that of Chikayuki Shinra run through his stubborn veins … The lion that besides everything has the last name of a powerful family, the Forresters . You know? Everyone says that you are the reincarnation of the founder, a black lion that has enough magical power to kill us all … Does this incredible character really not accept gifts because he is a good Samaritan?”
“What does that mean…?”
“You do it for that man! Although he doesn’t even seem to intend to reciprocate your feelings …”
The captain’s words turn into a sharp blade and slowly penetrate my heart.
“I tried … to hint at my feelings many times, but I only managed to make him avoid me.”
“Richt, who handles everything deftly … He has heart problems. How unfortunate. Well, so what. Don’t give up so easily and do your best?”
“We are friends, you don’t need to tell me such stupid things … Anyway, I have much more important matters than talking about my personal life with you so …”
“Wait a minute! I also have a message from King Theodore and Prince Alexei. Apparently there are strange movements in the southern area of the country from what I think, you may have to go on a rather long mission.”
“I get it.”
I leave the room quickly and I just think: Stupid captain . I don’t want to give up, of course I’m doing my best … But it’s never enough, it’s never enough. I am not enough.I think I’ve been thinking about that for quite a few years now … But that person knows my feelings and doesn’t respond to them. He doesn’t love me and I can accept it. The day he rejected me, I went to Berg’s room with a bottle of sake … But that only made it considerably worse! I thought about him a lot as I watched Berg drunk and asleep on the mattress. I think about him all the damn time and that makes the wound in my heart deeper and so much more painful too.
I like a person who is kinder and gentler than anyone else in the world. I always felt that only I could hear the cry of his soul, that he was seeking help from the bottom of his being … But maybe I was wrong. I was wrong to tell him that he was my partner.
He was always on my side functioning as my escort and my friend and I thought he might be fine as long as I looked at him from a distance … But then he quit.
My grandfather objected and even my mother was somewhat confused by his sudden actions. In the end they let him go, but since then, I haven’t heard from him. I can’t even feel him.
At first I was relieved that he was no longer here, but now I have an awesome feeling of emptiness that I have never felt before. Like I have a hole in my chest that I can’t fill.
It was very painful to let go.
It was terrible.
If that person is my partner … Then does he feel the same as me now? He needs me…? Or do you think that my existence is a mere obstacle to your path?
I went back to my room and lay down on the bunk … This is the most difficult moment of my day, because I’m only going to bed when I would like him to lie down next to me.
It’s only that person that I can think of and that’s how it’s going to be until the end of my days.
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“Richt’s sword style is really cool!”
Wayne is my colleague and he seems genuinely surprised that he could have killed the demonic monster with the magic sword that Dad gave me.
Today, the mission was to defeat the beasts that often appear in the forest near the capital of Leonidas … They are small creatures and pose little danger so we are assigned a group, a region and we kill them all in less of a day.
“Wayne, you should focus on what’s in front of you.”
“Of course!”
Wayne looks at the medium-sized monster that appeared right before us. He is a rare species among gentlemen and does not even live in the capital. I think this is also the result of the liberalization of the educational system and the vocational options reformed by my uncle Albert.
It seems to me that Wayne, who is a dog, is flattering me a lot today … The violent movements of his tail when I am next to him tell a story that I do not want to know.
In the end I regained my thoughts, took my magic weapon with both hands and pointed the sword at the demonic beast to penetrate its chest and tear its head to pieces.
Wayne’s monster line has been eliminated too, bit by bit. He has some sweat on his forehead when he comes and surprises me with his excited voice that screams:
“Thank you!!”
“Wayne, you must be tired, but you did very well today. It seems there are no injuries. I am quite happy.”
“I am honored that you tell me that.”
Then we organize ourselves to prepare a small camp and we sit on the ground, in an open and central place in the forest. The bottle of water Wayne handed me seemed to be a special blend of chamomile tea … There was a peculiar taste, but the dryness in my throat was so terrible I didn’t complain and took a lot of huge gulps.
“By the way, Wayne. Did your brother go to military school this year?”
“Well I do not know. They haven’t contacted me recently.”
“If he’s like Wayne, then I’m sure he’ll be a fantastic gentleman.”
“… I, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
“What do you say? Not knowing about your family is not a sin, man.”
“I’m sorry! I’m really sorry!!”
I was worried about the strange feeling of panic that Wayne’s desperate apology caused me. It was strange that his expression was so strong and I was also alarmed that there was not in him that carefree smile that he had every day since he joined us.
After watching Wayne’s back drift away, I discovered a profound change in my body … Little by little, executing any type of movement began to become more and more difficult for me. I have no power in my legs or in my hands and my consciousness gradually dulls to nothing. I don’t remember it clearly, but I felt like I fell and then I lost consciousness.
When I woke up I realized that I was surrounded by at least ten men and, judging by their appearances, I can see that they are all beasts . I wonder where I am, but I only see a picture of a tattered hut.
Both on my hands and on my feet I have metal handcuffs and inside my mouth, there is a huge and uncomfortable gag.
“Oh, the legendary black lion seems to be waking up already. Good morning, Your Highness.”
“How are you feeling, darling?”
One of the men removes my gag as he says it.
“… What the hell do you want?”
“Oh, fierce to the end. Is not true? Sure, I’ll tell you because I understand your extreme curiosity … There are some people who are not satisfied with the current king. You know? All those stupid laws and rules and that boy he married …”
“What a stupid thing! The reign is quiet and abundant now! You can tell just by looking at the faces of the people in town!”
“It’s a good kingdom for humans … But it doesn’t seem like it’s good for beasts. So hell-bent on releasing them, even though they’re so disgusting …”
“And that’s where you come in, sweetie. You and the slave collar.”
I heard about the necklace. Mom told me it was something used to control the magic of the Animus .. .
My parents’ angry expression when they talked about it was very scary so surely it was a truly heinous artifact. What will happen to me? And my brothers? Are my brothers okay? Hikaru is with Theo … But Sui, is Sui okay? And my mom …?
“Well, our boss wants us to keep you alive.”
“Did you ever think it was going to be such a beautiful Animus ?”
“We should thank the dog later.”
Wayne … Did that mean the words of apology at the time …? Were his words because he had sold me? No. Wayne. What did you do?
“So what’s going to happen to me?”
“We’ll ask you to follow us until we meet the boss, but before that … We’re all going to have a little fun together. Do you think it’s OK?”
“No … No way!”
“What do you say? There is a legendary black lion in front of us, a strange Animus from the lion tribe … And you think that we are not going to do anything? It’s a tremendous opportunity, baby. We will never have another.”
Then the men took off my clothes.
I couldn’t resist as my hands and feet were restricted and it was difficult for me to even stand up properly. In the blink of an eye, I was confused, dizzy, and blood was flowing from my lips because I had inadvertently bitten them.
I was … I was very scared.
“You have a beautiful body. You shouldn’t be in the knights, you’re just wasting yourself …”
Men’s hands are spread over my body. They are on the nipples and genitals that no one has ever touched. His thick, boneless, disgusting fingers are crawling upward before hurtling quickly over my pubis. I could feel nauseous and goose bumps. Panic shot up immediately after that.
“Please! Please stop. I … I can give you money or … I …”
“Baby, do you really think you can convince us in that pitiful way?”
“Please…”
Numerous hands caress my body, they do it with more enthusiasm on my nipples and on my penis. Finally, a man’s finger began to even go down my butt.
“No! No! Not there! Please, not there!”
“What? Maybe it’s kitty-san’s first time? I like that, it’s terribly exciting. Do you want us to slow it down then?”
I’m sure the man inserted his finger.
“Please!! Stop! Please … I’m not going to tell anyone!”
“Hey, why are you getting so unworthy now? You are a gentleman, keep acting like a gentleman. Aren’t we nice? I am very kind. I’m doing it slowly … And then Tom will be nice too; and Gabriel and George; and Fran …”
The men laughed out loud.
I was truly desperate.
I wanted to be touched only by one person, to connect with him one day, to love him … And now, I will lose everything. Everything I was protecting and all my pride too. While thinking of such things, the number of fingers of the man inside me increased and I began to scream desperately. I couldn’t even be able to suppress it.
“Please…”
“Does it feel good here?”
The fingers that have already increased to three, strongly push me up.
“AH! Please, please, please, I … I won’t say anything …!”
“We should keep him quiet, he’s starting to annoy me.”
“What do you say? Isn’t kitty-san singing with a good voice?”
“Oh no, no … Get out! Get them out!”
“Hey hey, aren’t you very happy here even if you say that?”
“No more! Do not touch me!!”
“Um, his attitude is more unpleasant than I thought … Cover his mouth and put the necklace on him.”
“As you say…”
One of the men lowered his underwear.
Not caring about what might happen to me, the beast grabs me and presses my head against his crotch to start shaking me from side to side.
“Oh, I never would have dreamed that I could put my penis in the mouth of a black lion. It feels delicious …”
“Wasn’t your mother a sex slave? Did he teach you to give blowjobs?”
“Human sex slaves sure have special abilities. Should we go for him next time to teach us?”
From the mouth of men, there are only words related to my mom. I could have endured if they insulted me more or forced me to do even more terrible things … But I couldn’t bear to be insulted to him .
I could not avoid it.
The man who was holding my head with both hands, screamed terribly when I bit him.
“AARGH!!”
The beast, now gripping his crotch with the same fingers that were previously on my head, rolls and screams so terribly that it makes me think it might pass out from the pain. I exhale the blood and spit out a large reddish lump on the ground .
“You stupid cat!”
Another man came before me, and then another and another. They dropped me, kicked my belly, hit my face, and injured my whole body in the way they came up with … Desperately I try to resist and stay conscious, but I couldn’t even move anymore and was starting to stop breathing .
My mouth was full of my own blood. Could I have a broken bone or two?
“Do you know what your position is? Ah? Do you know what you have to do? Stay still if you don’t want us to screw up your fucking face!”
A man grabs my hair too tightly and lifts me up so I can look at him. The subject’s face, who was squatting, had a distorted smile filled with absolutely terrifying joy.
“Well, I just need the bottom part.”
He lifted my body and held my waist up … He tried to get me on all fours.
“No … I’m not … I’m going to leave you …”
Although I hardly spoke, I was determined to bite my tongue and end my life if this situation continued.
The man shifted his weight, his hands on my hips.
The door to the cabin opened with a loud noise and a black mass jumped right from there. He killed the men at the entrance with a single wave of his sword and then when he saw me, he stopped moving completely. Like I’m in shock.
What I can see now are the same eyes that I have been searching for for endless months. A face hidden by a strange kind of veil.
“What are you doing with my partner? !!!”
His body exhaled an overwhelming anger. A murderous and dark aura that caused the environment to feel hopelessly tense.
A dazzling light enveloped the person. Both I and the men are pressured by his anger and we can only see the scene from our place on the floor. Johann, who was still standing by the door after the light disappeared, was a strange mix between a person and a dragon. The human figure remains, but its clothing is torn and the peculiar scales of a dragon are visible on its exposed skin. The dragon jewel on his chest changed its color from the usual light blue to something close to strong red. The short, dark brown hair appears to have grown a few inches. On the tips of both hands and feet, sharp claws begin to protrude and its eyes extend with vertical pupils.
What began then was a one-sided slaughter. One person after another and one limb after another. One’s eyes were sunken, the other lost his ears, and finally coiled a man’s neck until he beheaded him.
Johann doesn’t even blink and as he does so, he seems even angrier than at first. Looking in his direction and behind, I heard a last man screaming loudly, spitting blood on the ground … And it was all over.
Only me, Johann, and the guy who tried to rape me seconds ago are alive now. The figure that approaches me with a slow step and an expression of brutal anger, continues to emit an absolutely overwhelming power that almost suffocates me … But in reality, I did not feel any fear.
“I … Hann … That … an.”
Mr. Johann relaxed his expression upon hearing my voice so terribly shattered. He seemed to weaken a bit even … On the other hand, the beast that survived the attack, pulled me towards him and pointed a dagger in the middle of my neck.
“Halt, stay away !!”
But that was a useless way of acting.
When Johann, who had a cruel smile on his face, draws his sword, the man’s arm shatters in less than a second. Without me realizing it … The beast screams, falls, and struggles some more, but Johann steps on its back and drives the huge claws on its toes.
From the man’s back, the sound of bones breaking overlaps that of his screams.
“Johann … -sa .. an. I … I … I can’t …”
Johann turned to look at me and lost the strength of the leg that was hitting the man. He was bleeding in great amounts and seemed to have passed out as well … From his mouth and nose, the blood had begun to bubble.
“Richt … Richt, I’m so sorry …”
The light of reason returned to Johann’s eyes as he gently lifted me and cradled my face.
“Uh … My … Mom. I want … to go with …”
“Richt-sama, Richt … Easy. I’m going to take you to him right away. I promise you so, now don’t think about anything else. Try to rest here with me, okay?”
Johann holds me and lets my whole body fall against his chest.
And there it was again that wonderful smell … Like a flower wet with dew.
The scent of my loved one.
Unfortunately, I felt bad enough to say something about it.
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